“May your road be long and prosperous. Not short and futile.”
This was the thought that popped into my head last night before I went to sleep. Over the past few weeks, I’ve been really anxious about dance and exercise and nutrition and the whole ‘what am I gonna do with my life’ thing. I was trying to piece together my school goals and my dance goals. But they wouldn’t fit. While I had a dream of becoming a World Qualifier… or a World Medal Holder… or a champion, I also wanted to be an engineer. I wanted to travel the world, learn new languages, and make devices that would one day save someones life.
I used to have it all planned out on paper – what I was going to do and how I was going to get there. Yet, by writing it all down I boxed myself in and failed to recognize the serendipitous opportunities that passed by every once and a while. I became a formula. A ‘do this get that’ equation. I’m beginning to realize that’s not how life works. Its roads meander and twist and rise up and slope down and sometimes it’s best to carve your own path for a bit.
I think my goal for this year is to be more spontaneous. Responsibly spontaneous. If I make a decision, I won’t dwell. If life takes a turn to the left, I won’t fight it. I know that God has a plan and a purpose for me, and I think it’s about time I stopped doubting it. I can be an engineer and a dancer because those are the passions I have been blessed with. However, I now want my dreams to follow God’s plan, not my own. So far my plans have got me stumped and questioning the activities that not so long ago brought me joy. I tried squishing everything I thought I desired into the duration of my undergraduate degree, because I thought that after university everything was over. I thought that I had to drop my passions and get a job and join the millions of people that did the same thing everyday, like clockwork.
I had made my path short and futile. I closed my eyes to what lay ahead, because I feared it. I didn’t like what I thought was inevitable. Now I’m beginning to realize that there’s so much more to life. The great years of youth and imagination don’t die when university is over. Rather, it’s a time to turn goals into a reality greater than anything I could have imagined. It’s the journey that God has in store for me, and as long as I keep dreaming and believing and doing, my futile path will transform into a long and prosperous road.
P.S. The featured image was taken by me in Hallstatt, Austria during the Summer of 2013.